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Hiatus Off?

Oh hai, it has been years since I last visited. This page holds a lot of stories which I don't even remember existed, funny! There were lot of entries that have been deleted back then, because I thought the one I wrote in secondary school weren't cool anymore. But, I kinda wish I kept it here because who doesn't want to read about her younger days in a cringe and spooky way of writing (just like how I usually wrote my entries back then HAHA) in this very mentally exhausting phase of life. Oh by the way, I am much older now, much saner and a lot prettier (I guess). I even hold a position in a corporate world now, where you will see me typing a lot more important and serious stuff compared to what I usually wrote here. Believe me, I handle quite a serious role now, HAHA. The 16 or even the 20 years old me might be delighted to see this update because hey you know what, I know back then it was so confusing. But now, things are starting to make sense (at least for you, because ...
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Berpaksikan kenangan.

Kehadiran. Mungkin tak diundang. Mungkin dinanti datang. Mungkin dihalau pulang.  Tapi Kehadiran. Tetap datang dengan cahaya. Tetap datang dengan berita. Tetap datang membawa bahagia. Andai kehadiran. Datang tak diundang. Pergi yang dihalang. Redhakan dengan ikhlas. Sebab semua kan terbalas.
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Regret?

If only i knew we'd stuck in the Suez, I wouldn't bring you to the cruise with me, If only i knew it wasn't a cruise,  I'd stop you from the first time we step in, But too bad we're doomed we did it, Now we're here stranded in between, Waiting for the tides to get high and push in,  Or fate to save us from the storm or the winds, Honestly, If I was Ever Given a choice, I wish everything just stays in my dream, 
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Dumb choice

I wish I've never fall for you. Never open my heart.  Because my first love makes me don't wanna experience any love in the future.  Because my first experience only reminds me on how unworthy i can be as a person. It hurts. And it will always hurt. I wish i can forget all the memories that we've shared. But shit, i can't.  Because you'll never get to forget every first encounter in your life.  You'll never remember how many times you've visited a place, but you'll never forget when was the first time you went to a place. You might not remember how many times you've been hospitalised, but you'll remember when was the first time you've been warded.  That's how much this memory haunts my life. 
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Hurt

Even when the sky comes falling Even when the sun don't shine I got faith in you and I So put your pretty little hand in mine Even when we're down to the wire baby Even when it's do or die We could do it baby, simple and plain 'Cause this love is a sure thing Remember those days when I felt nothing, and everything seemed too sudden and blurry? I don’t expect me to be carried away so bad for what was happening. Those days when I don’t feel like how I used to. I don’t know if part of me is losing, or I’m losing whole piece of me. Everything was numb. My heart. My spirit. Lucky that my brain is still functioning on track. I’ve never expected that I could break this hard. People told me that being heartbroken is hard. But they never told me that it will be this hard. Too hard that I’ve feel like giving up fighting. *** Fighting is fun. For someone who loves to go against my comfort zone, I used to find it thrilling. But I’ve never thou...
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S.T.U.P.I.D

We're almost reaching 4 months.  4 bulan mungkin sikit, tapi dalam 4 bulan, ada lebih kurang 120 hari  And everyday in 120 days, I'm missing you.  Missing something that is no longer mine.  I'm fine. I'm not hurting. I was killed. 
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