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Dumb choice

I wish I've never fall for you.

Never open my heart. 

Because my first love makes me don't wanna experience any love in the future. 

Because my first experience only reminds me on how unworthy i can be as a person.

It hurts. And it will always hurt.

I wish i can forget all the memories that we've shared. But shit, i can't. 

Because you'll never get to forget every first encounter in your life. 

You'll never remember how many times you've visited a place, but you'll never forget when was the first time you went to a place.

You might not remember how many times you've been hospitalised, but you'll remember when was the first time you've been warded. 

That's how much this memory haunts my life. 

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