"Allah
sampaikan pesanan dan peringatan kepada diri ini melalui hambanya sebagai
pengantara"-Ira,2016.
19th of April
2016.
It was a calm and
peace night. Thank you for all the concerns.
He knows that i'm
going to live a life in dots dots dots, which is far million away from where we
are. He gave me some advices. Lots of good advices.
They are very
familiar with the surrounding of my soon, study institution.
So, let me share a
few of them with any of you who is interested.
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"Bila dah
duduk sana, atau mana-manalah tempat baru. Jaga kata-kata. Jangan suka-suka
cakap lepas. Jaga hati,perasaan orang lain."
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"Kita tak
kenal hati budi semua orang. Hati-hati dengan semua orang. Orang sakitkan kita,
pahit mana pun. Telan. Jangan luah. Jangan sampai kita sakitkan orang lain
balik."
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"Bina dan
jaga benteng & perisai diri. Tu paling penting. Kuatnya benteng-benteng tu,
InshaAllah kita terjaga."
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"Jangan asyik
leka,lalai. Sedar diri kita bawa diri dekat tempat orang. Tempat baru. Jaga
diri."
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He keeps on
repeating. Again and again.
"Ingat
tau"
Knowing that the
situation was so creepy-cold like we were all watching Munafik somewhere on
Earth, he makes some good jokes.
"Makan sana
sedap-sedap. Jangan risau makan. Nak lagi sedap gi Pulau Pangkor."
Does he knows that
I used to tell my mom, i don't care how far i'm going to live in soon. As long
as there's food and i can eat. That's all the things i concern. Lol.
*****
20th of April
2016.
Early in the
morning, he called my mum. The phone rang and a so long conversation just get
started.
I was standing
there, watching and listening if there's anything important that they're
talking about.
I was damn sleepy.
It was 8.30 a.m.
There it was. He
put some advices again. I really wonder how concern he is, regarding my
soon-to-travel obstacle. He keeps on telling on what should and shouldn't do.
There must be
something, at least a reason why he keeps on advising even in every little
detail.
Yes it is. There's
something.
"Hati dia ada
keras sikit. Mudah tunjukkan rasa tak suka bilamana dia tak suka sesuatu.
Bahaya tu. Dan, dia mudah terpedaya. Sebab tu pesan kat dia.Hati-hati.
Banyakkan sabar. Sebab tu risau"
There's silence in
me.
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I don't know how
should i feel. Every little things he said is true. In fact, i'm quite taken
aback. He knows my act, my true colours.
"Setakat
manusia mampu baca isi hati kita, mula rasa malu dah tak tertanggung. Selama ni
tiada apa yang tersembunyi dari pengetahuan Dia, tak malu? Barangkali kita lupa
hakikat sebenar Al-Alim?" - Ira,2016.
*****
"Jangan lupa
sujud syukur untuk semua nikmat yang Allah bagi. Ucap Alhamdulillah, jangan
lekang"
*****
"Sebelum
tidur pasang pendinding diri. Solat, baca doa. Pastikan tidur dalam diri
berwudu'"
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