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Love story, I guess that last night's dream affects me quite severely. I guess that it was a very good love story that I almost wanted to live in it. I guess that I'm going crazy. Definitely. Ever heard about that fast beating heart?  It just happened! My heart was beating so fast, SO FAST! That I almost thought that I'm gonna lose my breath some time soon but not.  Well on a side note, yes, final is approaching, But, I don't think that is the main reason over this unplanned 'band' in my heart.   Time to think. And yes, my study effort was on hold. I need to know the reason.  I need to know why am I like this. OMG help. Few minutes of thinking, "5 minit sampai" OMG that was the reason. God knows how fast the beats accelerated, how crazy I can be over this sudden rare-phenomenon. God knows.  Funny that, This is not my first time meeting him. This beating things has never happened. And  This is just a no...

Ever heard of giving up? Ever feel like doing it? I feel like I do. As if the whole world couldn't understand you. They are all going againts you. No matter how close they are to you, they just couldn't understand.  Even sometimes, they are the one who pushed you to the limit.  Well then, that is it.  This is not a depression-symptom suicidal thoughts yada yada just, a random rebellions in me. 

Happy 21st birthday to the one and only person who keep on reminding me to love myself better, every time.  " May you grow stronger towards the betterment of life & hereafter. Thank you for coming out into this world on February. I feel much younger than you and I am so happy for that . Semoga dipermudahkan setiap urusan & sentiasa dalam lindungan Allah " On 22nd of February 2018,  Cepat betul nak mengalah kan, tak patut betul . And I started to know you better after that.  Ok jujur ok jujur. Ade satu hari tu, orang tu kata "Aku garang". And all I can think of is, I already met one of the Msia's endangered tiger ( read: habislah dia ni garang omg omg omg I am dead ). But days later and months later, and even now, I don't think that I've met an endangered tiger.  Actually I met a cat. Only that you don't move around on your 4 legs. And you are cuter .    A cat that can help to ease my pains ...

Things will get better. Hang on, keep on fighting!

  Manusia.  Selalu rasa kita mangsa. Tak sedar, yang sebenarnya kita punca. Kita jugaklah pemangsa. *** “Takpe, tak payah susah-susah. Kitorang boleh buat hehe” ‘Cakap jelah saya tak reti. Tak layak. Nah’ Eh? Apa jadi ni? *** Sakit. Sakitlah bila rasa kau mangsa. Rasa diperguna. Tak buat salah. Eh tiba-tiba kita kena. Maka, kita pilih untuk diam. Diam. Diam. Diam. Eh makin hebat pulak kita kena. Apa masalah dia? Takpe, kita diam. *** "HABLUM MINALLAH WA HABLUM MINANNAS" Buat baik dengan Allah, buat baiklah juga dengan manusia. Jujurnya, siapa je nak buat jahat? Dosa kot. *** Tapi manusia, tak sempurna. Elaklah cemana, salah tu tetap ada. Kan dah kata, tak sempurna. “Hmm dah buat salah ni, cemana ni” Easy. Salah, minta maaf. “Dia minta maaf, kita nak buat apa?” Easy. Maafkan. Sama-sama manusia. Sama-sama tak sempurna. Wah indah betul dunia. Ingat ni hari raya? *** Kawan. Kau saya...

Sometimes, i do wonder. " Can we just undo or simply skip everything and stand on any point of life that we wish?" - No,girl. We can't. Okay, but, sometimes, i do wonder. How bad is life, until i can even wonder on something that is way too obvious to be asked? -It wasn't that bad. Until you realised, how much it hurts you down. Well, again. I do wonder. How much does it takes to break me down. And what does it carry? -It carries pain. But still, i wonder why i can't see the pain? -Because you feel it. Can i feel something that i can't even see? I wonder how does it work? -It lies inside, beneath a thousand of warm smiles you created to hid it. I wonder if i can erase it away since concealing it for too long hurts me more that i think? I wonder why i still care when the only source of the pain is- to think about it? I wonder why it still hurts me well when i keep saying i've put it away repeatedly? I wonder why does it bo...

Define idola? Selalunya, we come out with 'o rang yang kita adore,minat etc'. But then, i just did a very simple research on what does 'idol' really stands for. My first intention was to go into Wikipedia and find out the best definition of 'idol' to paste the information here.And to my surprise, i found a very new & shocking information which i quoted for a reference. ' Mengikut takrifan kamus Oxford (Edisi ketiga 2001), IDOL dalam bahasa Inggeris membawa maksud patung; berhala; pujaan; orang atau benda yang terlampau disanjung. Dalam konteks pengunaan, perkataan ini lebih sesuai menjurus kepada pemujaan benda, patung atau berhala. Hal ini dapat dilihat dengan jelas melalui beberapa terbitan perkataan lain seperti berikut 1. IDOLATRY = Penyembahan berhala 2. IDOLATER = Penyembah berhala; musyrikin 3. IDOLATROUS = (Bersifat) menyembah atau memuja 4. IDOLIZE = (Terlampau) menyanjung. 5. IDOLIZATION = Pemujaan; pendewaan ." Kesahihannya,...